Well, in a few days more, I'll officially be able to carry everything I own in my car. The garage sale last Saturday took care of all the big stuff, and now I'm left with a few boxes I need to pare down, to decide what stuff is truly important and what can be let go.
I'm glad for this. I've really been trying to decide what's important lately, and keep just -stuff- from being something that decides where I can go and what I can do. I won't want to be stuck in one place or another, because it's too hard to bring all my things with me. But at the same time, it was really hard to let go of so much. I had a hard time in the garage sale, seeing things I'd grown up with and things that had a lot of value to me, all sitting in a bin for a quarter and no one wanting them.
But the garage sale did go really well. A lot of the stuff that really mattered to me, like my old drawing table and the chair my mom gave me, went to really nice people. The girl who got my art table was really excited that I ended up a professional illustrator, and her mom was really supportive of her kid's talent... stuff like that makes me smile. We ended up selling a ton of stuff, though. It worked out really well.
I'm excited about the road trip, and excited about Canada. It will be really good to be able to try and focus on expanding my freelancing into something I can support myself with it. I'm elated to be spending time with some amazing friends and their family. There are a hundred positives here. I get my kitty back, for one! But I'm going to miss all my frivolous -stuff.- And I'm going to miss the people back here, of course.
It's just kind of bittersweet, and I've been so busy that it's been hard to take the time to look at it all. I worry it's making me lose some of my patience, snap at people more often than I normally do. I like to think I'm a pretty calm, mellow person, but I know I've been a bit difficult lately. It's just not fun to dig through things you value and decide what you're leaving behind forever. There's nowhere to store anything back here, so what I don't take is being sold or going in the trash.
Sorry this is rambling. It's just kind of an unexpected funk right before something I'm so excited about.